Every month or so about 4-6 weeks, I will be working through a theme in my spiritual development. I work these through and with my spiritual teacher that moves me forward along the path of raising my vibration or getting closer to God. I don't decide what comes up or what I work on, but I stay present with what comes up in my day to day life to identify themes and patterns that emerge. There is always something to notice because God is always trying to tell me something. These things are essentially what triggers me during a month or what issues come up in my life. If an issue is coming up, I find that it's like my soul saying, "Hey look at this! You should give this some attention." So I do give it some attention through journaling, my own lightwork and then finally I bring it to my spiritual teacher to see what vibration of Light is needed to dissolve that issue or issues, so I can raise my vibration.

I work with the Emerald Heart Light. This is an evolutionary light that is meant to dissolve fears that are most keeping my vibration from raising to the next level. The issues that come up during the monthly cycle point to what that fear is currently.

This month is all about reconnecting to the things and people I love. This actually came up through having the experience of feeling and being blocked from the people I love and care about. As I noticed those issues come up over and over, I was able to identify a pattern to them. I have used my own lightwork to deal with what I can, but I know there are deeper issues that only my teacher will be able to see. I can never see the whole of my own personal issues because I cannot walk this path alone. This is a Universal Law and I can struggle for years on something that my teacher would see right away. Since I am dedicated to the spiritual path and the evolution of my consciousness, then in order to make real progress I must work regularly with a spiritual teacher. 

I am meeting with her tomorrow, so it will interesting to see what the Guidance brings up through her.

I hope hearing of my own spiritual development has been as helpful for you as writing about it has been helpful for me.

Blessings,
​Kevin

Today I took a walk through a local nature preserve to ground my energy down. The spiritual process that I am going through is ungrounding me as the deep darkness is cleared from my heart as the Light penetrates deeply into my consciousness. I brought a camping chair and a book so I could sit in the cradle of the amazing mesquite trees. I come here often when I need grounding because these old trees are my friends and they help me ground and shed negative energies when I am having difficulties moving things through. I'm currently going through a period of rebirth where I'm not really sure what's what in my life and who I am. So, I arrived in the cool of the morning before the hot summer sun makes things too uncomfortable to do much outdoors. I walked the winding paths greeting with a smile others who are drawn to this refuge for their own reasons.

The cradle is the most amazing spot, and I felt soothed as soon as I entered the area. It's like a magical energy of the connected trees and roots hanging over my head and running through the ground creates a bubble of energy that I find very healing and soothing. Others I have brought to this place feel the magic of this spot also. 

I am always looking for messages from the Universe because I find they are hidden in plain sight and all I need to do to see them is be present and watchful. The lesson for today came in the book I was reading, "The Golden Rabbit" by David Ashworth. The book is about the journey of spiritual awakening told in metaphor of a small rabbit who becomes more than a rabbit. The author speaks of having the courage to stand in the world with an open heart behind a banner of light soothing the hearts of all who come to seek your help. 

​I find it very difficult to stand and face the world with an open heart because the pain of life had taught me to close and guard my heart from the mischief of others. Fear had taught me that people cannot be trusted and if I open myself to people then I will be hurt or rejected in some way. I lived in this fear for many years as I became more and more guarded and pushed people away for fear of being hurt. Eventually, everyone was pushed away and there were only a very few left. I was defensive and I used my words and voice to control this and keep from being hurt. Once the Light showed me what I was doing, it was time to change. Slowly my heart opened to this truth of what I had created through fear and having a guarded and closed heart. So, with the help of the Light and my teachers, I made a change. I realized that the only way to walk my path and to help others is to be courageous and stand before the world with an open heart.  This is the lesson of the heart that I take with me today, and I hope it finds you well.

Blessings,
Kevin